The Other Side :)

Hmmm.. don't you feel sometimes... we are on the other side of our own lives...

I have been feeling that lately... how lately or late is it? I do not know.. but have been trying to keep myself aware of my own words and deeds for a while.. just watching them... u know...
The most funny thing is... everyone of of us..(mind you I'm trying to be easy on myself though ... heh eh...) have seen each of us say or comment on something and see ourselves do the same thing..
Wonder why we do it at all... My research shows...that we are so subconciously attached to not doing something than doing something right.. we tend to project that behaviour... haaa haaa this is a spiritual or biological or whatever name u can give for this kind of explaination..
sometimes I wish I were just a mere spectatare when I lost control of myself and pause at every moment when I was about to let go of my control and keep track of myself...
But seems like evn while I am a spectatre.. i just cannot do anything withthe dierction of the scene... for I am just an audience of my own drama... How frantically and crazily I have been through many tunnels and towers to just see myself out of my own mess.. but one thing I have seen is nothing can be said and done until the scene is over and then rehearse for the next one.. but with a different direction even before the scene is enacted...
Looking back... I have known only one thing.. even thouh thngs have not turned out the way it was supposed to... but I saw myself as a strong warrior...
A warrior fighting the illusion... Illusion of life, spirituality, and escaping the facts through so called practices and cults or religions...
All I am aware is my own awareness and my own inner spirit guids me through evry minute ... I noticed that I am just happy with what I have been doing before all the calamity stirred up was best suited for me.. for it gave me immense peace of mind.. for the riuals came through my own self...
Nothing could ever replace that peace and confidence. A confidence of the present moment being in control...

Kabir Das Doha

Dukh mein sumiran sab karai, Sukh mein kare na koi

Jo dukh mein sumiran karai, tho dukh kahe ko hoi

--- Sant Kabir Das.



This is a couplet written by saint Kabir, which we learnt it in our sixth grade. The meaning goes like this:



Everybody prays and thinks of the higher self/ god/ lord/ supernatural being, when he/she is in despair, but none tries to acknowledge the higher self/ god/ lord/ supernatural being in happiest moments. But when you can feel the presence and acknowledge the higher self/ god/ lord/ supernatural being in your happiest moments, you will not be in despair.



Many of us would have heard this in lof of ways.



But somehing really made me experience that.